Short Fuse

I think the reason why I've been such a bitch lately is because I'm on my rag. I'm so cranky almost all the time now, I probably annoy people with that. If it's not that, then maybe I'm just too stressed. Suck it up right? Yeah I guess, I'll stop complaining once something actually good happens for a change :/
Like I've been saying to those close friends of mine "It's like back to normal, but not"
Sucks, because sometimes I just need you, not want you, not desire you, I actually need you. A friend once told me not to call myself a lousy sophomore because we're all on the same boat. That helped me to feel a bit less pathetic than what I currently am. I'm confusing I agree, I am confused. I want what I can't have, I need what I won't let myself get. I've seen others fall, I really don't want to feel those emotions they described to me although I have felt it before, why should I go through all that again? I can't keep running away from my problems, maybe I should just deal with it and stop complaining because I'm complaining alot now aren't I?