Silhoutte

Soo, it's hot. And being sick is the last thing I want to be with this hot weather. Sucks doesn't it? My life sucks -.-

Oh and I'd just like to say
NOTHING YOU CAN SAY WILL EVER COMPARE TO THOSE DAMN 228 DAYS. FUCK YOU DUMB IGNORANT BITCHES. AT LEAST I DON'T FAKE INNOCENCE, AT LEAST I'M REAL.


Anyways... So I have a booooy, who knows the difference between my words when I am in different emotions. He understands and looks out for me. Deep down, I really wanna change those aspects about myself, and he's helping me.
"I LOVE YOU, LET'S SPOON"
-MDP <3


I miss the Phillipines.. Michael Lundy took this VV

jeeeeerk

I actually really do like jerking. Quite Frankly.
I'm trying to learn it as ridiculous as that sounds. So I can have some type of talent.

Best Video They Have, I Must Say.

Stress Approaching

So school has started and my vacation is over. It's okay I guess since my vacation was totally fucking gay -.-
I really don't mind school. I have so much work and it's only been two days, but eh it probably has always been like this, I've just forgotten how school feels like.
The only thing that botheres me about school is the heat. It's so overwhelming. I sweat easily and this heat makes it so much more worse.
Waking up early; I'm already tired. Heat makes me exhausted. So I really don't feel likg getting out of the house anymore haha such a big change because during vacation I always had the need to get out. Now I just want to Sleep. Oh yeah, everyone says I have a really comfortable bed. I noticed that the first thing any of my friends do when they come over is lie down on my bed x]

I've gotten invited to go hang out with a whole bunch of people I don't know tomorrow. I really don't feel like going because I get really shy when I'm around people I'm not familiar with and I just want to stay home haha Buuuut since I love the girl that invited me so much, I'm only gonna go so she can be happy and see her hubby.
AAAAnd theeen, an old classmate is having a party on Saturday. His parents told me so it would be really rude if I don't attend.

School has really gotten me drained the fuuuuuuuuck out.

Sober

So it's getting kind of old and annoying now but I keep hearing it left and right, Are you bi-polar?
To be honest I am not, but the more you people keep asking me that, really is starting to make me believe that I am.
&again, To be honest, there's only one situation where I end up consistently switching moods. It's not like I intentionally do so, I've just noticed. People who are not bi-polar don't even know that they change emotions like that. I do,well because I am not bi-polar.
And really, its quite obvious. Havn't you noticed by now?

Go Figure

Sooo todaaay, or should I say yesterdaaay haha I woke up to a gloomy sky which made me happy because I really do miss cold weather. Cold weather is my favoriiiiite :DD
I watched The Fifth Element and Forgetting Sarah Marshall on tv today which was pretty freaking funny.
At 6, my mother and I went to meet up with my dad and his "train buddies" at this filipino restaurant in Cerritos. There were these two old ladies who acted as if they were 15 it was amazing. This one old lady practically talked like how I do but in foreign language. I was like what thee fuuuuh Grandma, yous fucken DOPE x]

After that I went home for a little then headed to Anaheim Ice and met up with Madison and Vicky and Kelsi. We had quite a fun time, I learned how to skate backwards! I felt so accomplished. It was freeezing but my body was hot but my hands were numb D: They were red and held them up to my yellow face, ohh the difference x]

Right now I am having my second hot chocolate of the night, compliments ice skating very well. Quite relaxing in my warm clothes, my feet are at rest :]

At a Peak

So in the past couple days I've been able to achieve a couple things. I learned to play Ego by Beyonce, Better In Time by Leona Lewis, If I ain't Got You [intro only] By Alicia Keys, and I Luv Your Girl by The Dream all on the piano :D I'm really starting to get into piano again just because I get to play something that is in my interest, not some complicated 1800's song given to me by my teacher. I do like some of them, but one song kind of just ruined it for me.
I finally feel like I have talent in something.
Oh! Also, the new Degrassi commercials are freaking amazing, I can NOT wait for the new episodes. Just to play around I re-enacted a couple of lines and my parents said I did really good and so now they're going to let me do theatre at my school! :] My baaaby helps me improve on my acting too so I'm super excited.

My emotions have been on an everlasting rollercoaster, like I said I am emotionally retarded. It gets pretty tiring starting off yelling and going into a devastation and then laughing all over again. What the hell is wrong with me -.-

You know what's the worst? Having to hear your bestfriend cry and you can't do anything about it. When they've been there for you in your times of distress and can stop your obnoxious whailing at an instant. I just wish I could understand her so thoroughly as much as she does towards me. I try my best baby I really do, and in a couple hours I'm getting you out of there<3


Right now, I am having an enthralling conversation with Lien&Angel
L: Run Little Bitch
A: Ooh I like it when you call me those names, uhh! Call me it again, oh poppa likes
He's amazing, He's straight for me ;] Ha, I wish (:

Asdfghjkl;

According to the love of my life
I'm a mess :]

Soo I think I'm bi-polar, I'm all over the place now. Siigh, maybe I'm just emotionally retarded.

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"Of course they care, but their words do not consist of concern only pity."
-Self

Hide & Seek

Why am I awakeee .
So many things have been exploding in my head .
Unconcluded conclusions .
Unanswered pondering questions .
If this is God's form of punishment, it's pretty damn harsh.

I have a feeling I am Not going to sleep tonight, or morning, whatever you prefer.

Left And Right

What are you doing? What do you want, seriously, what do you truly want? Stop doing this, please. Stop with me before you cause actual damage. And seriously, who wants that? <|3

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Sunday August 16, 2009
I went to chuurch then to Norms with the family. Had a great time.
Then came homee and watched The Haunting In Conneticut for the second time in Lien's Room. Her dad took a picture with their Canon Xsi of us, it was pretty fucking funny :] Then we took pictures with it all throughout Somerset and Hawks Point.


Monday August 17, 2009
Today was EPIC. I woke up the same time my brother did and so we went to Del Taco and got some food. Back at home I played the piano for a little since it's keys havn't been touched in a while. Then I went to Lien's house and tackled her while she was sleeping. After she was all showered and such we went to my house. I printed a 9 Page Piano Sheet music for this one song I wanted to learn and it's too hard x[ But since it's 9 sheets, I don't wanna waste, I'll have to learn it. Angel came and we walked to BobaYa! and back home. We hung out around the pool and the pool parking lot. Then we all went to my house for a bit and then they left. That whole time Angel, Lien and I took pictures with the Canon and Nikon ;] Fun Fun Fun <3

There's Gotta Be;

So yesterday was pretty fun. Woke up round 11:40 and before I could even take the blanket off Alix opens the door saying her, mikey, and edwin are going swimming and leaving in twenty mins. So if I wanted to go I needed to get the fuuuuuck up. Haha I thought of just staying home but since I had nothing else to do I got ready and went with them. At home I ate and watched some old Degrassi episodes in preperation to the Degrassi Goes Hollywood movie.


I needed to find a ride to the mall so Danielle came by and picked me up and there we went. I finally saw him again and since my best friend was there, it made it even better. Didn't get to see The Time Traveler's Wife though, but it's all good because we snuck into The Ugly Truth. It's not as great second time seeing it but since I was with him it was okay :] The awkwardness faded away after a little bit and we were back to our regular selves. It was over a month since the last time we saw each other and it felt so good to feel him around me again<3 After the movies we planned on sneaking into another but he was hungry and so was Danielle so off we went into Red Robin. Great times there, greaaat greaaat LOUD times there. So we made it a tradition now that whenever we're at Cerritos Mall and IF we see a movie, we GOT to eat there ;]

Then that day was overrr. I stayed up till 1:30 cleaning my room and man IT IS TIDY ! Once I cleaned myself up in the bathroom, I got a phone call and we talked for about an hour and went to sleep. Great day I can say ;] <3

Today I just helped clean the house with my family and it was quite fun when my dad came home because he was in a great mood :] Now the living room looks like a Den and the family room looks like a freakin BEDROOM. Quite amazing, but my mom got fed up with my dog's filthiness so now he has to stay outside :[ I can hear him in the garage whining underneath my bedroom floor. It's really sad, but its okay because once my brother comes home, he'll sneak him into his black carpeted bedroom x]

This, this is Bugsy :]

Just A Bit

"But I wouldn't love you if you changed"
_Danielle Ann

"If I could get this feeling to end
Trembling idle hands holding me there
We laugh in the face of love
Cause nobody's really there
Nobody's real"
_Anthony Green

Specific;

I've been seeing movie trailer thingys on tv lately that I really wanna see and they're all "In Select Theatres" -___-

How the hell am I supposed to find these "select theatres" ?! Sigh.. Well So far
_500 Days of Summer
_Paper Heart
_Spread

This ones not In Select Theatres! ITS A MUST SEE!!!!!!
_Where the Wild Things Are

Alix and I want to see it very badly :]
I'm really excited for this weekend, I'm gonna see The Time Traveler's Wife and District 9
The first one with two of my favorite people in the world and the second with the family plus Alix ha! :] Should be fuun.

I got really bored last night so i decided to use the fake eyelashes that I've had for awhile; I'm going to start wearing them alot more haha x]

Transcends All That We Know

Soo I was right, Today was great But tonight was just amazing
My family and I finally went out to dinner
We went to some mongolian place in La Habra and I ate waaay too Much
But when I got home I took a walk around the neighborhood with Lien and by that time it was slowly getting dark. Good thing I told Lien it was getting cold because it sure did!
There's this one really cute guy in our neighborhood that we havn't seen in a while and we finally did! Yaaay haha Lien's probably gonna get at that piece of ass now x] I wanted to stay at the pool so we went and laid down on the pool chairs for forever talking about so much; friendships, relationships, work, school, people omg it was just great. And I liked how I was outside because Really, I havn't gotten out for a while :p I got to lay upside down on the chair and I was facing the night starry starry sky while Lien played some John Mayer and Alicia Keys. It was quite perfect.
But on the way home Lien's dad came home and we hid behind the wall and right when he stepped on the porch, our asses ran all the way to my house and had cheesecake :]

I love running around the neighborhood at night and chilling on pool chairs. It's my newfound obsession.

And for some reason, this song has been stuck in my head all daay..

Glorious

Last night I honestly almost thought it was gonna go back to the way it was before, but it didn't =] Good thing I stayed up cuz if i havn't we wouldn't have been able to pull through the night till it was friggin 5:33 am! Haha We havn't been able to do that since the first couple times we talked. And it was the greatest conversation hahaha
I've finally found a boy that'll make me CD's ! Shit! That one blog that I said I wanted a guy that can show me some good music and there wasn't a guy there was Maryanne, Hahaha well, I guess I got that good love boy right now<3 Sorry maryanne, you rejeceted me x]

I have an amazing feeling that today is gonna be great, I'm not doing anything but since I slept at 5:33 I woke up at 1 and now my day is shorter so I won't have more time to be bored with. Last night I rented three DVD's so that'll Keep me busy. And I didn't have to cook my breakfast! Alix and Mike brought me a hot pocket :] Easy easy breakfast. Right now I'm watching Obsessed, So I'll get back to that.
Siiiigh, I'm actually truly happy right now

I miss These Days

This is pure entertainment
What the fuck guys, seriously
I miss you <3 ;[

Umbdebelli Tribe

That is a phrase from the greatest movie ever; Mean Girls hahaha
That is the main source where the greatest kids of my life and I get all our jokes from :]
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No matter what happens, or what happened, I'm always going to love you
I care for you too much, maybe more than I should but I never truly want to leave, and if I ever do, trust me it wouldn't be on a bad intention.
You've got me whipped I must say, And no matter how much my feelings get thrown around, I'm never going to stop feeling the way I do about you.
It's been about one month and all it has done is make me go crazy. I can't wait till the next time I see you :] Hopefully that is this friday, and we can cry together to the movie haha
I like how we're changing together, yay Alyssa and Caryl for inspiring us! Anyways, this is really good for us though, no? I'm really happy I've found someone that just wants to chill with me :] And hey! WE'RE BOTH DRAMA FREAKS hahaha :] <3

You jerkface, why am I so in love with you?



Since I mentioned Alyssa and Caryl, I might as well introduce my Cousin and her boyfriend. They are each other's firsts and they are so old! Hahaha they're the dopest indie couple ever lived.
Priscilla & Bryton <3




<3


So I've been getting really annoyed with my hair so I keep bugging ALiX<3 to keep cutting it and layering it and iiish, so I decided to get front bangs like how I did waaaaaay back in the day
Before


After




BIG CHANGE EH? Hahaha I kinda miss my old hair but it was time to change iiit :p When My brother saw me he was like "You look foreign" Hahaha, I'm glad we're not fighting anymore. I don't like it when we fight :[
Tomorrow I get to watch you're Muay Thai practice with Alix and Edwin, Yaaay:]


Siigh, this shit's fucking long hahaha, Goodnight <3

Tired & Uninspired

I havn't written a blog lately but maybe because my emotions have just been on a rollercoaster and I can't even choose what I want to write about.

It may seem that I don't know what I want but I do! I do okay? Havn't I cleared that up already? Maybe it's too much. Maybe Michael is right when he tells me we're both looking for something different. Maybe but why like this? I don't want to loose anymore people, this is all that's been happening to me this summer dammit. -____- I can't even try to sleep anymore because You're all I can think about. I'm not waiting, fuck that I am not waiting. I just can't believe that this has started all over again. I can't take this, you say I'm playing games with your head, for two days okay. I'm sorry that I've been so damn confused because you're giving me high's and low's.

I don't know anymore, just stay or leave. It's up to you, and right now you're practically gone because well like I said, you always end up disappearing.




Tell me what to feel, because I really dont know <|3


Thanks for being here for me Michael P<3